I can’t be the only one who said that in a Forrest Gump voice. Sometimes I feel like life just when it feels like I have the whole life thing figured out and my Tetris game is on point I’m thrown a jagged peice that doesn’t fit anywhere.
Lately life has been pretty near perfect. My husband just accepted an amazing position in our ministry and I’ve never been prouder of him. With this promotion (if you would say) comes a lot of different perks. Now anyone who knows me knows I’m a planner I do not have a spontaneous bone in my body. Spontaneity is on my list of top 5 fears with snakes tornados heights and the dark. So I like to know things way way in advance. Well eventually once we get our own camp we are hoping to move onto the camp and live there FULLTIME. Yay for no more packing up and moving two and from two different camps. Well there have been some prospects and of course as soon as I hear that I start planning about what I want the house to look like and what’s around said camps but then things fall through and we are back to nothing. That’s the first jagged edge Tetris peice
The second is I have been blessed with an amazing daughter she is perfect in everyway and I’m hoping someday to expand my family and give her siblings. Well I have been dealing with ovarian issues. You know my ovary felt like growing a small orange and forgot to ask my permission. Being a woman this can be quite scary as the first thing that pops up is can I have more children. My doctors all say everything looks good but having to be on medication to mess with hormones to fix this is something I’m worrying about. Of course not being sure what the future holds makes me regret that I didn’t embrace my pregnancy with my daughter or go on a dairy free diet to prolong our wonderful nursing experience. And didn’t take advantage of how beautiful pregnancy really is.
But today as I was giving my worries and day to God like I do everyday Jerrmiah 29:11 poped into my head. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares The Lord ” plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Wow just wow God already knows what the future holds he knows in his timing things will work out according to his plan and I’m so thankful for that. He has the perfect camp picked out if it’s in his plans and if I’m meant to have more children it will happen when He is ready. It’s something I need to mediate on more and be thankful to God for more not just when a situation occurs.
I’ll leave with one thought. The next time your winning at Tetris are you going to let those pesky jagged peices make you lose the game than think oh I wish I could have done that or I wish I would have done that. Or will you take those jagged peices and use them to your advantage right here right now.